Emerging Secrets

A tale of overcoming pride.

It’s three weeks before launch and you have no confidence in the upcoming release. After five years of development, millions of dollars, and countless overtime hours, the system will fail on delivery.

And you’ve known it from the beginning.

It is a disheartening feeling paired with panic. As the system’s development team leader, it is your responsibility to keep things in line, to keep the team moving forward in the right direction, and to anticipate the possibility of failure.

Bah, you think, there’s only so much that I can do.

You keep your head up, hands down, and continue driving the system forward while cycling through the collection of rationalities you’ve clung to since the problem’s discovery, it won’t be that bad, it’s not so severe, it’s just a bug we’ll resolve later.

Day after day the problem compounds.

Deep within the tangled web of daily activities, you lose sight of the impending problem. You are distracted by bugs in a non-critical component. The time spent on integration issues with the enterprise resource management software creates an illusion that the other integrations are working correctly.

Now judgment day is here. The systems are being deployed to production. You click the button to run the scripts that build the packages to send to the production environments. Finally, the puzzle pieces are put together to be leveraged by thousands of customers.

Besides the lack of training, the customers don’t run into any bugs. Deployment successful. You and your team rejoice.

The next week the systems you’ve slaved over are at a critical point: payday. Sales input data is validated and correct. The sales systems are communicating properly. You track the sales data moving from one system to another, checking the output analysis, a sea of green.

It is at 2 A.M. the following Sunday morning when your phone rings. The customers didn’t get paid.

“Fix it!” A whole-hearted response, valid to its core, forms the mantra driving the team.

You run the series of validations against the sales data. Green. You have your cohorts comb through system logs. No issues found. You then begin manual validation, double-checking each calculation.

The hairs on the back of your neck stand on end. Goosebumps are sent across your body in waves. You fall into a cold sweat. The validations are flawed causing a series of false positives. It’s the issue you never recorded, the bug you deferred and that had not been fixed.

“How was this not found earlier?” The dreaded question is laid out, plain and clear. It must be addressed.

The truth is, you did know about it. To save face, you lied to yourself and, worst of all, the team. As the project progressed, you manufactured a version of reality more acceptable to your pride. Now the truth comes out as it always does.

The company you represent faces enormous challenges. Customers need to be paid manually. The system needs to be repaired. And you can no longer be trusted.

Sitting in front of your home desktop computer, customized to be quiet, fast, and to emit an appealing array of lights across your wall, you lose yourself in the thought that maybe you won’t find a new job in your field.

You unconsciously hold your index finger on the down-arrow key, the list of job openings scroll past your eyes. You see none of them.


Your eyes snap open and you suck in a deep breath. You sit up from your bed, soaked in sweat. You check the clock: 3 A.M. You realize it was just a nightmare.

You know what you have to do.

When you arrive at work early that morning you set up a meeting with the project’s leadership. With system design underway, there is no time to lose. The issue is not something to put off until later. It must be recorded and addressed according to its assigned priority.

The team gathers in the meeting room, offering polite greetings as they enter. When everyone sits down, laptops closed, eager to hear what the meeting is about, you say, “There is a flaw in the third-party validation system we plan to use for validating sales data calculations. We may need to find an alternative.”